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I Hate Nothing

I used to hate how blank my thoughts were. Sometimes I’d just have nothing on my mind. Literally nothing. While some may say that nothing is something, I actually agree. The feeling of nothingness, is in of itself a remedy to many concerns we have in our life. As a kid, something would always be on my mind, something trivial, but seemingly important at the moment. If I hadn’t felt anything at that moment, if I hadn’t thought about anything, I’d be worried that I was growing more stupid. Then, without that mental activity, I’d pause my interaction with the world, and subsequently fall into a state of idleness that wasn’t utilizing my time well. This spawned from how my dad would often ask me repeatedly, are you doing something meaningful? Most of the time I’d have to lie to him and say yes, but even so, the words would silently drive my internal desire to always be productively doing something, rather than an inactive consumption of resources. To this day, I still somewhat struggle with...
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Money Buys Anti-Sadness

The things that matter in life are those that you can remember in the moments prior to death. I anticipate some examples of such would be family, friends, enriching experiences, and whether I’d lived a purposeful existence. If I weren’t to wake up tomorrow, would I be satisfied with what I’d accomplished as of late? Would I be satisfied with the way I’d spent my time until then? Do any of them entail the societal conception of money? On the surface level, no, money doesn’t pop up in mind. I’d imagine that a lonely king living in a marble castle disconnected from society wouldn’t exactly be happy. Neither would an individual who seeks pleasure in the purchase of new commodities that hold perceived value. Well, I guess beauty is in the eye of the beholder, as some may find certain joy in luxury goods that otherwise provide no utility. While many may argue that the allure of money providing purchasing power, is a farce, there is a small misalignment with the interpretation of what happin...

Henry’s Formula for Procrastination

Preface I love procrastination as much as I hate it. I don’t attribute my habit of procrastination to a distinct property that hovers consistently throughout my daily life, however, I have identified a formula that acts as a measure of how influential procrastination is per that specific activity that I wish to complete. The formula outputs a factor of which procrastination plays a role in the decision making process of an activity on a scale from 0 to 1–0 when I will not procrastinate at all throughout the activity lifetime, and 1 when I will procrastinate for as long as possible. Factors Fear of Failure (F) My first variable in my formula–arguably the most influential factor–is fear of failure or F . Fear of failure is an irrational fear of making mistakes, experiencing setbacks, or not meeting expectations. I view it to be my chance of failing at the first attempt at the activity, since I expect myself to perform the best I can in exams where I’m only given one chance. It is a...

Quantitative Analysis of a Qualitative Subject

How good are you at waiting for what you really want? Terribly great at it.      Order confirmation: January 15th, 2025, McDonald’s 2909 W Kirby, Quarter Pounder with Cheese, Medium Fries, and a Medium Coke. I had just broken my record for most Mcdonald’s orders in 7 consecutive days. Yes, I concede that I struggle to resist bodily impulses–whether that be certain foods, poor habits, or inaction–that have plagued me throughout my life, but these do not speak to the macroscopic approach to certain goals. Or do they?        In response to my lower pleasures (as tokened by John Stuart Mill in the famous Utilitarianism ), I have attempted to train myself to reevaluate my immediate goals. Presented through multiple facets of my life, I believe track and field has exemplified these pursuits the most elegantly. Quantifiable. As primal as it may be, track and field is a game of numbers, chasing a numerical value as a measurement of one’s success. In fact, it i...